"Oh...the little things"

This is way more a quick vent than a thoughtful post..

Last night my boyfriend's car broke down so we got to spend an unplanned night hanging out and then he slept over. Now we had been together camping the whole weekend, so I was pleasantly surprised when we were both excited to see each other after less than a day apart!

It seemed to be going so well.. I was in a silly mood and kept flirting with him until he cracked a smile, and then eventually joined me in lovie dovie bliss..

We made out before going to bed and I made the decision that I was way too tired to fool around. He jokingly gave me crap, but then said it was a good decision and that he was tired to. So then we fell asleep and all still felt good in coupledom..

I heard him wake up before me in the morning, but fell back asleep for a while. In an hour or so I crawled out of my bed on the floor (we sleep separate for a few different reasons) and into bed with him. I could tell immediately he was emotional and "off" in some way, so I asked him, "what's wrong?" He sort of groaned and rolled over and then said quietly "why do you think something's wrong?" and I said "That's obviously not the issue, because something IS wrong. What's going on?" and he said "I don't want to tell you.." and I said "okay..?"

So then he told me what was wrong. And it was so silly. He knew it was silly and I did too-- I didn't feel upset or get upset even. He had wanted me to come and cuddle with him when he first got up and (adding to the fact I have been unresponsive to cuddling past mornings because of wanting to keep sleeping) started to feel upset that I "would rather sleep than cuddle with him". Now, this is so weird because this kid is never jealous of other guys or me spending time with my girlfriends...he is usually rather level headed. But here he was, jealous of my wanting to sleep!

Like I said, I wasn't upset and even kind of giggled about it... "not a big deal" I told him "and the only thing I like better than sleeping is waking up to you next to me" (trying to boost the ego a bit, but honestly it's true!) So then one thing led to another and we ended up making out and fooling around before rushing off to work.

So here's where it gets annoying (I mean that in the fact that I'm annoyed to be feeling weird or upset when it was a really fun night together!). When I was leaving he seemed really distant and even made some joking reference to how I was acting like his mom because I made him a lunch and saw him out the door. Now, would your mom give you a f*cking hand job at 7am!?? I think not.. Anyway I guess I'm just annoyed because I re-assured him when really he was being the jerk and then gave him some physical action afterwards and he couldn't even leave things affectionately..

Granted, he was running out the door to a job he isn't crazy about. He was tired. He probably felt like crap a little bit for being a jerk about the cuddling thing. But I don't know.. sometimes his feeling bad for being "a jerk" makes him actually BE a jerk because it makes him all distant and crap! ugh!

Anyway in the grand scheme of things I'm really not that upset. sigh..also just don't feel like working.. :) blah.